This is me without hair ๐Ÿ˜Š

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Thank you all for your Facebook comments and messages trying to help me decide what to do with my hair. I made a decision, and what you said actually had an influence on me.

One friend said that she knew whatever decision I made, I would be fine with it, because I am such a positive person. Well, I knew that of all possible worlds, there was one thing I wasย not feeling positive about, and that was the ugly hair falling out all over the place! I figured if I cut it all off I would find a way to be fine with that, but I was never, ever going to be fine with this nasty mess.

Another friend sent me a message from someone she knew who had been through cancer treatments. She said, “Take your own hair before cancer takes it.” She suggested a party with wine, but I just had a few moments with my daughter in the bathroom, and coffee!

One other thing that influenced me was when I looked at this blog and saw the photos of just what my hair looked like. It was not attractive. It made me look unhealthy, and whether I am or not we don’t need to emphasize that.

But probably the thing that motivated me most was when I looked at my pillow from last night, and it looked like it had grown a fur coat. That was just disgusting. And this morning when I was babysitting my grandson, when I’d hold him up on my shoulder I was afraid he would be inhaling all these flying hairs.ย So anyway, it’s gone. It was a full on shock when I saw myself for the first time. I looked like a man, for one thing. And not a young sexy one at that! But itย feels good. It feels good not to have to worry about the hair falling out, and it feels good to get on to the new phase and start experimenting with scarves and the like. And Lori’s friend was right, it felt empowering, to take back at least one thing from cancer.

So you aren’t likely to see me wandering around with a bald head, but here it is, this one time, in all its glory.

I have received a number of special little gifts during this ordeal, but one of my favorites is a bracelet from my daughter Libby, which is pictured at the top of this blog. I have tried to take photos of the whole thing, but because of its size and shape I haven’t been able to. ย So I will just tell you what it says:

What Cancer Cannot Do … cripple love . shatter hope . corrode faith . suppress memories . silence courage . steal eternal life . conquer the spirit . kill friendship . destroy peace . invade the soul

IMG_0016So now there is one more thing I can add to the list of what cancer cannot do.ย It cannot make my hair fall out! I

Love you guys, and really, thank you for everything.

And by the by, this is me. ๐Ÿ˜Š

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